My marriage is somewhat new yet I feel like I’ve had my heart stomped on more times than I should have. We never had a honeymoon phase. Things have yet to go the way they should. Sometimes. Sometimes I wonder if I married the right person. I love him. But sometimes. Sometimes I doubt the reason I said yes. I wonder why I let things happen the way they do. Sometimes. Sometimes I feel like it was all a big mistake.
Most often when I fall asleep at night and find another face in my dreams. Not an available face and it’s just a dream…right?
I wonder if I’m heading down a path of breaking my own heart. The one that’s already heavy and cracked. Sometimes. Sometimes I just want out.