I’m 35 yrs old. I’ve been married for 12 yrs to the most wonderful man in the world. At least, according to me, is. We have two kids, a boy and a girl, who are my world. My first love still contacts me, to this day. Maybe once a month. He will send me a random message. He got my number through a friend about 10 yrs ago. I don’t want to be with him, but I can’t seem to change my phone number. We were together from 18-21. I feel guilty everyday.