I’m Scared

I am White and my husband is Mexican. I never really thought anything of being in an interracial relationship. I love him for who he is, not the color of his skin or where he came from. My husband isn’t into the whole “culture” business but my mother-in-law? Oh boy. She is. She pushes culture down my throat every day. She tried her best to make sure my husband didn’t marry me because he wasn’t “appreciating his culture”. She tried to force me to learn Spanish because she quote “wants her grandchildren to be bilingual.” Now, I’m not stupid. I know that teaching your children two languages is a very good thing, there are many educational benefits from this. But, since my mother-in-law hates me and has tried to shove everything you could think of down my throat, I refuse to learn and to teach my children Spanish. The thing is, my husband doesn’t care if they don’t know spanish. He speaks English as well if not better than Spanish. Because of the things that have happened between his mother and us, we don’t speak to them anymore. They want nothing to do with us and vice versa. I don’t want my children around his mother because of the idiotic things she says to me and to him. He wasn’t treated very well by his family as a child and he wants to stay away from them too. But, in the back of my mind I’m scared. I’m scared my children will feel like they don’t fit in because they are half white half mexican. I’m scared people will expect things from them that they can’t give, I’m scared people expect things from me that I can’t give. I’m scared I’m scared I’m scared.

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