I am struggling with severe depression. Most people don’t know because I am able to still go to work and at church I pretend everything is fine. But inside I am dying. I feel so alone and I hate my life. I feel guilty because I have so many blessings so I shouldn’t feel so depressed. I am scared I will spend the rest of my life alone. My whole life I have wanted to be a wife and a mother and I feel like God is punishing me or there is something wrong with me as to why I am still not married. I hate myself and so many nights I am praying, pleading with God to let me die. The only reason why I haven’t commited suicide is because I am afraid I will fail at that to. My secret is noone knows how much i am struggling or that I am suicidal.