10 years ago, My friends and I OD’d on pills. I passed out, hit my head and had a grand mal seizure. We were not old enough to drive yet and my parents had to come and get me and rush me to the ER to get my stomach pumped and I wasn’t in good shape. 6 weeks ago, I started having seizures again, out of nowhere. They have just diagnosed me with Epilepsy, and have told me that that one mistake I made cause permanent damage in my brain. I have been lucky that the Epilepsy has stayed dormant for that long, but it is out now. I can’t help but feel so stupid. That one stupid decision will haunt me for the rest of my life. I know that I need to be grateful that it was not any worse, but its irritating to me that people can do drugs every day and have no damage. I was just denied FMLA and forced to quit my job, and I have no idea how I am going to afford to pay the medical bills I have accrued while I was being diagnosed. My husband is furious and doesn’t know about the stuggles that I go through. I don’t know what to do. Diabetes, Infertility and now Epilepsy and all my medications make me feel awful all the time, I try to stay strong for him, but deep down, I am lost.