I worked hard to have many children. I endured several miscarriages, delivered 3 stillborns, and have dearly loved having all my children. But now I find myself wondering what I was thinking. I am tired. Worn out. I get sick and tired of cooking, cleaning, driving, shopping, referring, blah blah blah.. I feel guilty for feeling this way. IT IS EXTREMELY HARD TO BE COMPLETELY SELFLESS and I SUCK AT IT!!