During pregnancy I followed every “rule” I ate healthy, stayed away from absolutely anything that could’ve been perceived as remotely dangerous and my daughter was born with a birth defect that will alter her life forever, I’m so angry I can’t even look at friends when they complain about mild things like an ear ache or teething. Does this make me an awful person? I don’t understand why this happened to my baby girl. She’s beautiful and I fear she will never be okay. I have a new baby and my fear has spiraled out of control into severe postpartum anxiety. I’m worried it will happen to her as well. I’m so angry and so sad I’m not sure which I feel more.